Day 5 - begging for a clue

My pantry is pretty full.  It usually is this time of year (and really the rest of the year, too).  Unfortunately, that means that I don't have a lot of ingredients for a modified diet and I definitely don't already have a lot of pre-made items that will work for me.  I pick up packages and read the carbohydrate amount just to see way too many items that cover 10% or MORE of my daily carb intake!

I've decided that I really want a book with foods listed in it.  I'm also going to have to buckle down and make a trip to the grocery store for more specialized flours for baking and some healthy bread.  One thing I'm grateful for is California rolls.  I can usually find them with brown rice and the veggies in them are great.  I may also have to go for my post-baby lunch standby: whole grain bread, avocado, lean turkey and sprouts.  I love it.  The avocado makes a great replacement for mayo and provides a lot of great healthy-fats.

Tonight was a show for my X and her friend.  I was fine until the Sno Cone.  Yeah, all sugar, no good.  Sadly, I didn't really even enjoy it.  I think I need to plan to take snacks and water when I go to things like this.

You know, when I was diagnosed, I was all optimism.  How much would this really change my life?  I knew it would push me to be regular with my exercise program but I didn't really figure on a huge change to my diet.  I admit now that my optimism was probably tinged a slight bit with the shock of change.

I haven't lost all the optimism.  I am just facing down myself with the understanding that I am currently going to have more failures than successes when it comes to food.  It isn't just carbs I have to keep my eye on, but sugar.  And sugar seems to be in everything!

Exercise did not happen today.  I wish I could be less bleak, but this is a down day.  Its honest to say that today ended up being rough.  I don't have to be proud of bad choices, but I can look at them with honest appraisal and the understanding that I will make more mistakes but I need to keep trying.  The benefits outweigh the disadvantages.