As much as I hate negativity, it seems to creep up on us this time of year. I totally get it. I worked retail. I have the years where I wonder how I'm going to even come close to paying for Christmas. PCOS is like the frosting on the gingerbread man.
I also know that this bout of unhappiness is linked to PCOS and hormones. This all might not bother me quite so much otherwise... Yeah, who are we kidding there? Not getting to eat the holiday goodies is just a bummer. I love all the different goodies people make this time of year. I love being one of the people making those goodies. I'm bothered by this. I also know that Santa won't be doing me any favors by filling my stocking this year. The nausea I get from eating too many carbs or too much sugar makes the Reese's Peanut Butter tree NOT worth it.
I used to think, "Hey, I can totally limit my sweets! Once in a while is great! Hmm, I think I'll make brownies..." Now, I think "Why do you get to eat that and I don't? @$%$% jerks."
You totally get me, right?
I'm also really tired. I know this is pretty common, too. It doesn't make me like it any more, though. Just because you know that there is something in you that is causing moods or discomfort or lethargy, doesn't change it into a "Oh, its just my PCOS! Rock on with the issues!" It still just sucks.
Tomorrow will be better. I'm also proud of how I turned away today from the foods I don't need. It wasn't easy, but I managed. Tomorrow, I will have a big bowl of fruit to take the place of all the candy that will be left behind by Santa. It sucks today, but I will handle this.
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