I spent the morning running errands and then taking youngest to use her Build-a-Bear certificates to purchase way too much stuff. After the foray into fluff and tiny prom dresses for stuffed animals, we went to eat and then headed home. I got lost at one point during errands and my phone had decided this week that it just didn't want to work. So, sans phone and its gps program, I had a frustrating morning in which the only person made happy was youngest. Lunch was not healthy.
When we got home, youngest played in the yard for a bit while I caught up on Words with Friends, cleaned and tried not to snarl. After a bit, I explained to my daughter that we needed to go inside and warm up so we could take the dog (and ME) for our walk today. She agreed, got comfy on the chair for a bit and I continued my Words games and let her watch an episode of her new favorite show: Wild Kratts.
After it was over, I attempted to shoehorn her away from the chair though I really had no motivation.
Me: Time to take puppy for the walk!
Y: I don't really want to go out for a walk, Mommy.
Me: But we haven't taken the dog for a walk in a few days.
Y: But I want to stay here and you won't let me stay alone. (She's 6. Like I'm going to let her stay home alone?)
Me: Well, we need a walk.
Y: I don't need a walk.
Me: *feels my face shifting back into snarl* Yes, but I need a walk.
Y: Why?
Me: Because I need to get in shape.
Y: Mommy, you are just the right shape.
Me: Yes, but in a size too large.
Y: Well, I really don't want to go, Mommy. It will be dark soon, I think. We should stay here and snuggle.
Me: *stony silence as I realize my child has out-maneuvered me and I have just lost because continuing to argue would get ugly and last long enough that I would still lose* Sigh
I am tired a lot. Is it the diet? Is it PMS? Is it PCOS? Do I just need more/less caffeine/chocolate/cheese in my diet? I DON'T KNOW!!!!!!
No real exercise today. I did manage NOT to go to Starbucks and probably only had 1.5 cups of coffee today. Breakfast was a KIND bar. Lunch was fish and chips. Dinner was gluten-free cereal. I think I may need to eat more. The sad thing is, I just don't know what to eat. So many foods have stuff in them that I'm not supposed to eat but then I end up waiting too long, getting hungry and making a bad choice.
At least tomorrow morning I will get my walk in after youngest is back at school. Sad that I have to say that. I understand, though. She's a kid. She wants to do the activities SHE chooses, not something her Mommy wants. I'm really going to have to work on the bargaining with her and not letting my own self-defeating lack of motivation side with her and knock me over with a feather.
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